Thinking Critically, Acting Positively, Growing Spiritually

I have had such a hard time writing this speech, and for everybody out there who knows me, you know I’m a talker.  I am supposed to pass on my wisdom, but since graduating, I have never felt so lost.  Fortunately for me, I have always thrived off the idea of being lost.  I started romanticizing the idea of being lost when I got my driver’s license and realized that I had zero sense of direction.  My sister would always get frustrated going anywhere with me, but I was constantly reminding her  (and myself) that being lost was an adventure.  Getting purposely lost is one of my favorite activities. You never know what you will discover.  There is only so much you can learn from a guide, but there is limitless knowledge you can discover on your own.  I guess that I am lucky that from a young age I became comfortable with not knowing where I was going and trusting in the universe to get me where I needed to go.

Since graduating, I have had to frequently remind myself of this.  I can’t  believe it has already been a year, but I am glad it has flown by, because this year has definitely had its ups and downs.  No matter what you studied or what you set out to do, GRADUATING IS HARD.  Of my group of best friends, one started a Ph.D program, one was doing Teach for America in Miami, one was running an NGO in Peru, some stayed in Nor Cal, and I moved home tirelessly searching for a meaningful job, yet all of us felt completely lost.  I kept telling myself and my friends that it was okay for us to feel lost because this is a new phase of transition, but it is difficult to see this clearly while you are going through it.

It is the same thing you go through when you come back to Berkeley from your Practice experience and you can’t really define your feelings.  You feel inspired, yet disheartened.  You expand your global consciousness, yet you feel totally disconnected from your own reality.  It becomes a “disorienting dilemma”, because you can’t quite figure out your place in this world.  This is how I felt after coming back from working on a design/build project in Brazil after finishing my 3^rd year of studying architecture.  My experience in Brazil helped me define what kind of architect I wanted to be, but defining what I wanted, made me realize what my architectural education lacked.  It was difficult returning to my overly conceptual studio courses where we were never asked to think about what I found the most important aspect of our forms, the people.

It was the Global Poverty and Practice minor that salvaged my passion for architecture.  It gave me the space to create my own path within my architectural education when I came back from Brazil—lost, but with a full consciousness of my responsibility in advancing my social architecture ideals.  The Global Poverty and Practice minor freed me from thinking that success was defined by (very sarcastic tone here) working really hard in my major, taking boring internships, applying to top grad schools, and working in order to live a comfortable life.  The minor made me realize that success was not about living comfortably, but about finding fulfillment by LIVING PURPOSEFULLY.

By Living Purposefully, I mean seeking to be aware of everything that has an effect on our motives, actions, values and goals, and being willing to live the truth of these values.  The GPP minor constantly reminds us to be aware, which is the first step to living purposefully.  Being aware enables us to critically examine ourselves and the world we live in.  Before we go off on our practice experiences, we are taught to be aware of our actions and thoughts, so that we can participate in an exchange of care, knowledge, and respect.

This constant reflection and Critical Thinking holds us accountable to Acting Positively and behaving in accordance with that in which we see and know.  This in turn leads to our own Spiritual Growth.  By spiritual growth, I mean our ability to unlock and understand the depths of our own experiences and how we relate to the world.

The GPP minor gives us a lens to see the world, which does not stop with the end of our practice experience or graduation, but something we will carry on in whatever we pursue.  The minor taught me that I will never find fulfillment in doing anything that doesn’t force me to think critically, act positively, and grow spiritually.

I actually quit my job the other day, because it was not giving me any of these things. Although I am still struggling with this period of transition, I have taken these lessons in and want to share them with you.  When I graduated, I felt so much pressure to just get a 9-5 job or apply to grad school, but I realized that if I did these things just because it was expected of me and not because it was the right time and place for me, I would stop discovering for myself and never reach my full potential.  The minor showed me that it was okay to be lost, because being lost allows you to find your own path.  Graduating is such an amazing time for us to learn, discover, and grow.  In my year of discovery, I starting working for LIVE! From the Future…with Stuart Paap (an internet comedy talk show), starting doing some improv/sketch comedy, working on a community organizing project in Wilmington, CA, and I will be starting a Fulbright in Brazil in 2011.  The most valuable thing we have is our youth, so use it to your full potential.  Don’t be afraid of this new period of transition.  You are allowed to be lost.  Follow your passions, do what you love, and don’t settle for anything or anyone that doesn’t force you to think critically, act positively, and grow spiritually.

“Extraordinary Machine” is one of my favorite songs by Fiona Apple.  I live by this quote, “If there was a better way to go then it would find me”.